Finding Her Again

How do we get lost? 

How do we hide and bury the parts of ourselves that have kept us in joyful living?

I don’t have the answers but I am remembering….

Tucking her away, where she felt safe

But in that safety….

She stopped living with her full expansive breath of life 

She stopped living with the creative spark of her soul 

She held back her tenacious spirit that had taken her on a joyful journey through life 

She didn’t know how to keep holding that magnificence and brilliance that she is

…..and the most painful part….she took all that joy, power & magnificence….and gave it all away…

To whom do you ask? To whoever would do life for her, let her slip away into the corners and stay hidden and safe

But her tears flowed in those quiet corners 

A flicker of remembering who she always was

So….It is time….

… to bring her out of the corners

….chisel away the armor

….embrace her fully into my heart with so much love and compassion 

….So she can finally breathe again

There is nowhere to hide 

Because even in those safe corners 

She was dying 

❤️My mom kissed my forehead last night and said to stop living in her shadow. No….she’s not here but she’s still here….reminding me it’s not too late to live a life from the deepest guidance of my soul❤️